Your eyes are a window to your soul, this is the doggy door to mine. You can stick your head in, see and hear what’s going on inside but you’ll never get in
I don’t even know where to begin this story, so I’ll just start here…
I woke up this morning feeling like shit…again. I didn’t even want to get out of bed, but as I lie there watching time tick away on my alarm clock I came to a realization; time goes by way too fast, life is too damn short and I’ve been here too many times before. This made me ask myself a seemingly insignificant question, yet it was one that has changed me as of that moment. I asked myself “why the fuck am I letting myself feel this way? What is the point in wallowing in your own sorrow?” this question is the beginning of the rest of my life.
With that said, I think we need to realize something, we as human beings are in control of our own happiness. I have spent my life looking to other things to give me happiness, whether it be a material object or the bottom of a bottle. A friend or family member or even the sweet embrace of a lover. I’ve had a lot of time to think, There might be a key to our heart that others may borrow copies of (some are never really returned), but the key to happiness is locked away in your own mind and that key is a key that cannot be copied. I’m going to start my road to finding that key. I know that road has bumps, curves and obstacles, but most of all there are many forks in that road. Most lead to dead ends and there are no road signs, only hints.
I’m going to start studying secular Buddhism, yes that does mean I do not worship or even believe in a god (sorry mom). I am going to use this as a guideline for how I live my life but in the end my destiny and my fate is MINE to control. If there is a god and he does not accept me for the person I am then fuck him, I wouldn’t want to worship such a god.
In conclusion, I just want to say that it doesn’t matter what religion you follow (or lack thereof) you should strive to be the best person you can be and do what it takes to find the happiness we all desire. Most of all remember this; your life is YOUR LIFE and the way you live it is in your hands.
Take a look at your life, now grab that mother fucker by the horns and take control.